So I had a life change on Jan 13th, 2011. I lost my job. I cant say much about it except for I will say this. I could do nothing to change what happened. I could not save my job for I was not given the chance to. My position was no longer needed in that company and they laid me off. I never had a bad work review. I never had problems with absences. I did everything I was supposed to and more. Obviously it was not enough.
So now I am a stay at home mom till I can figure out what to do. I feel kind of trapped right now not sure where to turn. Its almost like a clean slate except my bills tell me that I still need to bring in some money... Sigh.. why couldn't those have been laid off to? :0)
My dad is pushing me to go to school, that I have been wasting my life (gee dont tell me how you really feel!) and that this is all for the best. (Ummm dad are you plannin on paying my bills? Oh your not? Dang it!)
So (I am saying So again) I thought that if I put this out into the universe and I just let it go that somehow the bitterness, the fear, the betrayal and the depression will go to and I can see a clear path to what I need to do.
Do I have more to say about what happened? Sure I do. BUT. I know that it will not change what happened. I know that in time I will get over it. Years and Years and YEARS from now I might even think about forgiving. Plus Kendall still works there and I need to support him in supporting our family. I do not want to ruin what job standing he has there.
I am sincerely grateful for the wonderful people in my life that have supported me and tried to help me see that elusive silver lining that I am currently blinded to. I am grateful to the few friends that I have made that called me and texted me and sent me comfort.
Thank you and I will be fine. To my old job - you only got one day of complete ruin out of me. To myself - they didnt even deserve that.
So. It. Is. Settled.
On to a new life, one that I hope where I never REPEAT that experience again.